Scrarch 6, 9, and 10

Well Those three are now down from the list and i feel great. Caught a lot of fish with my dad today, and enjoyed both a good meal with my mom and a few great books afterward. As for squaring away any debts, well no ones stepped forward to say i owe them anything so it's off the list. Ok until then.....


--Jenkins

Popeye vs. Anime

Hello all you people out there. i was postin' more of my video's on google when i came across this video and almost peeded my pants. if any of you know me well you know Popeye is one of my all time favorite cartoons. Hope you enjoy --Jenkins

Such Different Feelings

Can a relationship really work if both people still love their ex's? Can that just be an understanding between two people, like, "ok, we really like eachother and we should see if we can make this work, but I know that you still love your ex and you know I still love mine." Honesty is important, right? So how could that not work?

If that can work, then why does it feel like it isn't working? It has to be something different. I feel like I, once again, am screwing things up in this relationship. He says I'm not, but I know it's not him, so it has to be me.

I've expressed my worries about all this before.

I saw one of my best friends today. I haven't seen Carey in several months because of school. I tell her just about everything. What is surprising is that everything he said about me tonight I had just told carey. It was like Deja vue. I saw everything flooding back, except while Carey thought I just needed a bit more time, I now felt scared and worried as he told me all this.

He even brought up the spark that I feared we didn't have. He noticed it too. What can I do about that?

I fear it could all come to an end before it really begins. I know what he would say to that, he would reassure me and tell me to be more positive. Thinking negitively creates negativity I think he would say (at least something like that). Isn't that just another way I am just screwing everything up?

He's different than anything I've ever had. That is both thrilling and scarey.

CapriSun, a baby, and a whistle

Weird title so i know so i'll explain it....
So i'm sitting here with my neice (she says hi) she'ss the baby, she's drinking a CapriSun (and forgeting to breath between Sips) and i've got a whistle around my neck as i sit here and write this email....wait now my neice is dancing, and i'm now at the end of this email.

--Neko and Ollie

P.S. 22 more days till Pfeiffer
GO FALCONS

Gifs: Untold Stories

My very first posted video on google video.

The first to fall...Sherman's March To the Sea

The first of my list to fall is #'s 7 and 11 (this was not planned at all i promise). But i must make a confession, these two were already completed at the time i made this list i just needed to put them up there anyway. So here i go on my quest to complete my list.

My List

Ok if E$ can have a list than i can too. So here it is my list of things i wanna do.

i wanna......

1) To be the best on the Falcons Swim Team
2) Hold a majority of the male swim records
3) Obtain the right of Captain on the team
4) Fix my freaky flip turn

Enough with school goals on to others......

5) Learn how to shave my legs with out cutting my self
6) Square away any debts i have with anyone before Aug 17
7) Mend any relationships i have destroyed
8) Convince my sister that all high school boys are not worthy
9) Go Fishin with my dad
10) Take my mom to lunch
11) Figure out how to get to an alternate universe
12) Buy a car

other than that i have nothing eles to say so yeah...............

--Neko

Up Late

I'm up because I had a horrible dream. I want to/am crying. I feel sick. I want to call my boyfriend but I don't want to wake him up.

I also realized today that my religion should never make me feel guilty about things I want or have done. It should be there to support me. It should be there to help me make the best decisions for myself as well as decisions that won't hurt others.

I actually think both these things are, in a way, related.

Worry

There's no toilet paper in the house. I'm not breaking down and buying it this time either. I have bought the vast majority of toilet paper for the house in the 9 weeks we have been here, and considering we go through a roll a day, that’s quite a bit.

Maybe I'll take some from an on-campus bathroom, but the rolls are so huge its hard to ride my bike back from work with a 50 pound roll of toilet paper. The past few days have kinda been like camp. Everywhere I go I think "where am I and should I use the bathroom while I can?" Its tons of fun!

Ok, now to the deep stuff. Does every relationship have a different feeling to it? The one I'm in now feels completely different than the last one. It kinda worries me and maybe it shouldn't. It’s like that feeling of attraction or that "spark" I had for him is less than it was before. However, despite this he makes me feel wonderful about myself. I've never been treated this well before.

I feel almost like something is missing. But does that just come with time? It’s been a long time since my last relationship started...almost a year. I can't remember how it felt at the beginning. I do know that by the end I always wanted to be near him. Often if he wasn't there I would just think to myself "I wish he was here." While I do that now, it just doesn't feel quite the same and I don't think I do it that much.

I know that I loved my ex-boyfriend very much. Even now I know that I loved him, it wasn't just something I said. However, this love let him get away with a lot of stuff. Love is forgiving like that, but maybe probably mine was too forgiving.

Maybe I just need time for that same feeling to develop. Maybe I have realized that that "want him around all the time" feeling isn't good...or it didn't work the last time and I just ended up getting hurt.

Why do I worry so much? Whatever happens...happens, right? That’s what I like to tell myself, but it can be hard to believe or to stick to. Sometimes it’s hard the see the positive things.

I really shouldn't worry about boys so much...that was on the list.

You know, it just occurred to me that maybe I am trying too hard to like him. I mean, I'm not saying that I don't like him; it’s just that maybe I am too concerned with trying to make this thing work out or make it feel just right. Maybe if I stopped worrying it would actually be easier.

Ok, I am gonna get back to work now, you see how dedicated I am to my job. Anway, I think I will try to worry less today (is that possible, or will I just worry about worrying?).

Another One Bites the Dust

As ironic as it is, number nine is accomplished. In my new room that is attached to my old room (the room was a triple, now its a quadruple!) I don't have a tv. I don't watch all that much tv, especially if I'm alone so I figured that I can always go in the room right next to me if I have the need. But anyways, I noticed that if I lay in my bed in my new room, I can see the tv, while if I am in my bed in my old room, I can't. Funny, huh?

making the list

Anouncer Guy:Whoot, was up all yous peoples out there in normal land. this is your roking DJ for the hour JENKINZ! (Loud and uncontrolable screaming).

JenkinZ: Hey Guys....oh wait lemme fix this thing

Ok thats better so I got this email from E$ saying that was scrolled off the main page, well I says to my self thats just unacceptable and i have to fix this ASAP so here i am now no longer scrolled off but now at the top.......Ok that's it bye

--Neko

p.s. the title is a link

My Favorite Holiday

Numbers nine and ten were checked off this weekend. All in all, I'm not doing too badly. Maybe I should make more lists. They should include things like "I want...all A's in my courses....a million dollars...the body of a model." It could work.

So anyway, this weekend with Anna was amazing! We racked in the points from guys checking us out, but Anna totally won. We went out to a club on Saturday night. We got hit on by lots of weird guys, but it didn't even matter. Seeing was we are the best dancers, we don't even need those boys.

Anyways, in case you guys didn't know, July 4th is my favorite holiday!! I am so excited, but kinda only half way cause I can't spend the night at the Leonard's like I normally do because of work on the 5th. Eck.

Other than that it is totally my favorite holiday. Its warm out, it means swimming, watermelon, cake, friends, dancing, singing, illegal fireworks...ah, nothing says "America" like illegal fireworks.