Such Different Feelings
If that can work, then why does it feel like it isn't working? It has to be something different. I feel like I, once again, am screwing things up in this relationship. He says I'm not, but I know it's not him, so it has to be me.
I've expressed my worries about all this before.
I saw one of my best friends today. I haven't seen Carey in several months because of school. I tell her just about everything. What is surprising is that everything he said about me tonight I had just told carey. It was like Deja vue. I saw everything flooding back, except while Carey thought I just needed a bit more time, I now felt scared and worried as he told me all this.
He even brought up the spark that I feared we didn't have. He noticed it too. What can I do about that?
I fear it could all come to an end before it really begins. I know what he would say to that, he would reassure me and tell me to be more positive. Thinking negitively creates negativity I think he would say (at least something like that). Isn't that just another way I am just screwing everything up?
He's different than anything I've ever had. That is both thrilling and scarey.
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