Thursday, July 27, 2006

Such Different Feelings

Can a relationship really work if both people still love their ex's? Can that just be an understanding between two people, like, "ok, we really like eachother and we should see if we can make this work, but I know that you still love your ex and you know I still love mine." Honesty is important, right? So how could that not work?

If that can work, then why does it feel like it isn't working? It has to be something different. I feel like I, once again, am screwing things up in this relationship. He says I'm not, but I know it's not him, so it has to be me.

I've expressed my worries about all this before.

I saw one of my best friends today. I haven't seen Carey in several months because of school. I tell her just about everything. What is surprising is that everything he said about me tonight I had just told carey. It was like Deja vue. I saw everything flooding back, except while Carey thought I just needed a bit more time, I now felt scared and worried as he told me all this.

He even brought up the spark that I feared we didn't have. He noticed it too. What can I do about that?

I fear it could all come to an end before it really begins. I know what he would say to that, he would reassure me and tell me to be more positive. Thinking negitively creates negativity I think he would say (at least something like that). Isn't that just another way I am just screwing everything up?

He's different than anything I've ever had. That is both thrilling and scarey.

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