Simply...
I'm a bit bummed out. The fact is, I've been home by myself since yesterday, so I haven't had too many people to talk to. But really, I felt a funk coming on a few days ago. You know that feeling...the "no one likes me" or "I'm such a loser" or "something is not quite right" funk.
Wait, maybe no one understands this, maybe I am the only one who gets like this. I mean, this funk is completely pointless. It's not like I didn't go swing dancing last night with Deanna and Ron. Regardless of whether or not they truly like me, I went somewhere with them. Heck, I even danced with other people (not the young, cute guys I would have like to, but regardless, I didn't just sit alone)!
I guess this funk would have to simply be the "something is not quite right" funk. Certainly someone likes me, otherwise no one would have been dancing. "Loser," well, I don't get into that funk too much. I don't know what is not right, but it just isn't.
As I said, I have been feeling the funk coming on, but it was in full swing after the sad "UCC Youth Meeting." It could have been a meeting...if people showed up. Between my church and the other local UCC church one youth showed up. I brought food, planned games, and even wrote a lesson. Ironically, the lesson was on welcoming people. It is hard to welcome those that don't come. From 4-5:30 I talked with Allison, the girl that showed up, the pastor of the other church, and their "youth" leader. We didn't talk about the Bible, or God, or anything that I had planned. Allison and I showed them around our church and then we talked about our lives. Hum...
Basically, after leaving that, it was full-funk time. I went home and pondered what to do. Finally I rented a movie and then got a frozen dinner seeing as there aren't too many food options close by. While at the Food Lion I ran into my friend Tiffany and her dad. She ended up coming home and watching Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind with me. That probably isn't a good movie to watch while in a funk. My mother and brother came home from the baseball game just as Tiffany and I did.
I am kinda upset about the whole church thing. At this point, it seems hopeless or pointless. Why do all this for nothing? Well, next meeting is at the other church. We might get 2 next time, that would be good...doubling our numbers.
So now I am just sitting here typing and wondering if I have said too much or if I should even care. I mean, who is going to argue with me that only having one kid show up isn't a bit disappointing?
It's just a funk.
Wait, maybe no one understands this, maybe I am the only one who gets like this. I mean, this funk is completely pointless. It's not like I didn't go swing dancing last night with Deanna and Ron. Regardless of whether or not they truly like me, I went somewhere with them. Heck, I even danced with other people (not the young, cute guys I would have like to, but regardless, I didn't just sit alone)!
I guess this funk would have to simply be the "something is not quite right" funk. Certainly someone likes me, otherwise no one would have been dancing. "Loser," well, I don't get into that funk too much. I don't know what is not right, but it just isn't.
As I said, I have been feeling the funk coming on, but it was in full swing after the sad "UCC Youth Meeting." It could have been a meeting...if people showed up. Between my church and the other local UCC church one youth showed up. I brought food, planned games, and even wrote a lesson. Ironically, the lesson was on welcoming people. It is hard to welcome those that don't come. From 4-5:30 I talked with Allison, the girl that showed up, the pastor of the other church, and their "youth" leader. We didn't talk about the Bible, or God, or anything that I had planned. Allison and I showed them around our church and then we talked about our lives. Hum...
Basically, after leaving that, it was full-funk time. I went home and pondered what to do. Finally I rented a movie and then got a frozen dinner seeing as there aren't too many food options close by. While at the Food Lion I ran into my friend Tiffany and her dad. She ended up coming home and watching Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind with me. That probably isn't a good movie to watch while in a funk. My mother and brother came home from the baseball game just as Tiffany and I did.
I am kinda upset about the whole church thing. At this point, it seems hopeless or pointless. Why do all this for nothing? Well, next meeting is at the other church. We might get 2 next time, that would be good...doubling our numbers.
So now I am just sitting here typing and wondering if I have said too much or if I should even care. I mean, who is going to argue with me that only having one kid show up isn't a bit disappointing?
It's just a funk.
posted by Emoney at 11:56 PM
2 Comments:
ok dear...you wanna talk about a funk...I live in a funk...it is unusual for me NOT to be in a funk...you know this. And about the "...Deanna and Ron. Regardless of whether or not they truly like me..." pfft!!!! Thou art the awesomest! That is not even a real word! I made it up just for you!! Because there is no word to truly describe how cool you are!! So ha! But yea, you should feel better!!! Cuz you deserve it!
Much Love,
D
I'm SO sorry I wasn't at Youth, Emily. I was majorly busy...and I don't like the new youth leader.
I've been in a funk myself. It happens once and awhile but I eventually get over it. I think it's my "summer funk" since I don't have much to do in the summer...
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